love being ignored... even when i'm talking...

why do i bother half the time? doesn’t seem to matter. feeling like i’ve pissed off my friends again and now they don’t want to talk to me. i’m sure i’m over reacting but that’s how i feel. and since this is MY blog, i’m allowed to say how i feel so if you have a problem with that just deal with it and move on. no one’s making you read my blog… anyway… i had a pretty good day yesterday and today i’m feeling pretty lousy. mood swings are freaking bugging me. up down up down. half the time back and forth in 5 minutes or less… whatever… i hope you all are feeling better than me and having a great time living your lives…

Part Deux

Kaleigh felt better with Aidan by her side. She was seventeen years old, Aidan had just turned eighteen. Aidan had been quiet the last few days and seemed far away. "Is everything okay, Aidan?" Kaleigh asked. She was now eight months pregnant and was nervous about almost everything.
         "Kaleigh, will you go to dinner with me tomorrow?" Aidan asked. 
         "Of course, Aidan. I'd love to." The next night Aidan picked Kaleigh up and brought her roses. After dessert, Aidan took her to a park and they sat quietly for a little while. Then Aidan got down on his knee. 
         "Kaleigh, will you marry me?" Kaleigh had tears in her eyes. When she tried to talk, her voice caught in her throat. The only thing she could do was nod her head and cry. She hugged Aidan and cried into his neck.
         "I love you, Aidan." A moment passed and Aidan pulled out of the embrace. He pulled a small silver ring out of his pocket and placed it on her finger. 
        "I hope it fits. It was my mother's," he said. He looked into her eyes and then he kissed her. Lacing his fingers with hers, they walked back to Aidan's car. He walked her to the door and before they went inside he kissed Kaleigh again. "Don't ever forget that I love you and your baby, Kaleigh," he said. "This step we're taking is going to start rumors again. We have to be strong."
        "With you, Aidan, I will be." When Kaleigh showed Arabella the ring, she hugged her and Aidan at the same time.
        "I'm so happy for you both!" The discussion of dates came up. Arabella reminded Aidan that the law in Ireland is that both people had to be eighteen before they could marry. Kaleigh had only just turned seventeen.
        "By then the baby will be born," she thought. She placed her hand on her belly where the baby was kicking. The sensation made her smile. The planning continued despite the fact it would be almost a year before the wedding would take place.


Kaleigh walked with Aidan every day. It was their only time to be alone. One afternoon, Kaleigh felt a pain in her back. Aidan noticed the wince on her face. "What is it, my love? Is everything alright?"
            "I think I should go home. I need to talk to Arabella. Something doesn't feel right." Aidan walked Kaleigh to his car and took her home. Arabella knew that Kaleigh's pain meant that the baby was on its way. When she told Kaleigh this, Kaleigh began crying. Aidan took her in his arms and held her until they reached the hospital.


Kaleigh's baby was a girl. When the nurse asked what the name of the baby's father was, Aidan said his name. Kaleigh was confused. "That man who called himself your father will never have a claim to her. I love her and now she is mine. What are we going to name her?" Aidan said.
          "Could we call her Aidan? Aidan Kelly?" Aidan smiled. 
          "I love it." The nurse handed Kaleigh her baby. "Hi, little Aidan," she said with tears in her eyes. 
          "Happy birthday, little one," Aidan said. Arabella came into the room.
          "Come see her, Arabella," Kaleigh called. "Her name is Aidan. Like her daddy's." Kaleigh looked at her fiance. Arabella stood over the baby and touched her cheek gently. "May I ask you a question, Arabella?" Kaleigh asked catching her eye. Arabella nodded. "May I..." she paused. "May I call you mom?" Arabella hugged her, baby and all.
          "Yes, you may." Arabella's tears mixed with Kaleigh's and they held each other. A few days later, they took little Aidan home.
         "She needs a nickname so we'll know who you're talking to," Aidan said, "Why don't we call her A.K.? Those are her initials." Kaleigh and Arabella agreed to this and they put A.K. to bed.


As Kaleigh's eighteenth birthday drew near, the wedding plans began to take more time and caring for a new born was making Kaleigh irritable. Aidan came over every day to bring her her homework and to help take care of 'his daughter.'
         "Aidan, you may call her by her name. We all know she's yours," one of his friends said one afternoon. "Even though that fiance of yours denied it all along. You're the only guy she dated." Aidan was fuming.
         "She is not my blood but she is mine. My name is on her birth certificate. You don't know Kaleigh the way I do. She doesn't want you to or she would tell you her story." 
         "Why don't you tell her story then? If it's so important."
         "She has very politely asked me not to. Besides it is not my story to tell. Now if you will excuse me, I have a family and wedding plans to attend to." Aidan turned his back and walked quickly away. He didn't realize he had clenched his fists until he was nearly to Arabella's house. "Who do they think they are talking about my family like that? Do friendship and love mean nothing anymore?" he thought.
           Kaleigh noticed Aidan's mood the second he walked through the door. "Look who brought home a grey cloud, A.K. . Daddy's upset." The moment A.K.'s eyes met his the feeling left and he could smile again.
           "She always makes it better," he said, kissing Kaleigh. "You always help too." They all settled down on the couch.
           "What did they say today?" Kaleigh asked, knowing that it had something to do with her.
           Aidan sighed. "They tried to make me tell your story. They picked on me for not using A.K.'s name and tried to say I was her blood father because you have only dated me for the year you've been here." He paused again. "Don't misunderstand, Kaleigh, I love her like she is my blood. But I know the truth and I always will. Until you decide to tell your story they will always make things up to suit themselves."
           Kaleigh moved closer into Aidan's shoulder. "I've been thinking about telling the story after the wedding," she said with a sigh. "Would you be totally against that?"
         Aidan shook his head. "It might explain everything to the people who always have their noses where they don't belong."
        "Aidan, it's really okay. Like you said the night I told you my story. We know the truth. And we're in love. That's enough for me." Kaleigh smiled at him. Aidan couldn't help but smile back. A.K. giggled from Aidan's lap and her parents laughed too.


Kaleigh and Aidan's wedding went off without a hitch. The reception was beautiful. Aidan stood by Kaleigh's side as she told her story to the friends who had joined them for the wedding. By the time Kaleigh finished, everyone was either in tears or on the verge of them. Kaleigh felt as though a great weight had been lifted off her shoulders after she had told them. Aidan felt the release of stress from her shoulders He looked into her eyes.
            "I love you Kaleigh. Always remember." Arabella brought A.K. to her parents. "I love you too, A.K. ." Kaleigh smiled up at Aidan.
            She said, "I'm happy." Aidan drew her close to his side. "I love you."




There you have it ladies and gents! The end of "Kaleigh's Story." Thinking I may expand on this little tale but you'll have to wait and see. Hope you enjoyed it.

long time...

I know it's been ages since I actually wrote anything here. And even longer since I posted what I'm going to post. How does the rest of "Kaleigh's Story" sound? That's been a while huh? Since February... I finished it long ago but just found the book again. So here we go...

"Kaleigh's Story"
By Avalon Swiftwind 


Arabella held Kaleigh's hands and watched her face. "You were very brave, Kaleigh. You are only a child and have made an adult decision. I'm proud of you for getting away from a difficult situation." Kaleigh suddenly felt tired. Her shoulders sagged and her chin fell to her chest. "I will do my best to protect you here, Kaleigh. Try and sleep. I'll stay with you until then." Arabella tucked Kaleigh in and sat beside her until she was sound asleep. Arabella walked out to her living room and looked at herself. She thought to herself, "The poor child. Forced to grow up so early in her life. No wonder she ran. No wonder she's jumpy." She had a hard time sleeping the rest of the night. Kaleigh met Arabella in the kitchen for breakfast the next morning. "How are you feeling this morning?" Arabella asked. 
             Kaleigh smiled a little. "Better," she said. I think it was good for me to tell my story. 
             
Kaleigh soon found a job in the afternoons so she could go to school in the mornings. She thanked Arabella every day for her hospitality. Kaleigh had made friends and was especially close to a boy named Aidan. He was the first person to become her friend when she had arrived at the new school two months ago. It was around that same time that Kaleigh became nervous about the results of her father's last rape before she left. She told Arabella her fears and asked for her advice. "What should I tell Aidan?"
              Arabella thought for a moment. "Have you told him your story?" Kaleigh shook her head. Arabella went back to her thinking. "Would you be opposed to having him over for a meal and telling him? I'd be here to back you up. From what I've seen of Aidan, he seems like he will support you no matter what happens."
             Kaleigh thought about it. "It can't hurt to ask. When should I ask him over?" The decided on Saturday's dinner. 
             Aidan agreed and only asked one question. "Are you in trouble, Kaleigh?" She looked at the floor.
             "I don't know." She quickly wiped at the tears that were forming in her eyes. Aidan quickly hugged her close.
             "Whatever it is, I"ll be here for you." Kaleigh hugged Aidan back.
             "Thank you, Aidan. I've never had a friend like you. In fact, I've never had anyone like you. The closest thing I've ever had to a family is Arabella." Aidan pulled away from her. He put his hands on her cheeks and used his thumbs to wipe away the tears that were now streaming down Kaleigh's cheeks. "I'll let you explain when that when you're ready." He hugged her again and, taking her hand, walked with her to their next class.

Aidan arrived exactly on time, his reddish blonde hair pulled back to show his green blue eyes. Kaleigh smiled shyly at him and he kissed her cheek. Arabella served the meal. After they had eaten, they gathered around the fire place, Arabella on one side, Aidan on the other, and Kaleigh in the middle. Kaleigh pulled her knees up under her chin much the same way as when she had told Arabella a few months before. She began her story again. By the end of it Aidan was holding her with her head pressed gently into his chest. "That's not the worst of it, Aidan. And I'll be okay if you decide to leave after I tell you." Here Kaleigh paused. 
               Aidan placed his hands on her cheeks again and looked her in the eyes. "Tell me. I'm not going anywhere." 
             Kaleigh sighed deeply. "I'm pregnant with my father's baby, Aidan." She watched his face, terrified at what she might see there. Arabella watched silently from the couch, tears in her eyes. Aidan simply held Kaleigh and let her cry. Arabella noticed him wiping away tears of his own. 
             "What are your plans, Kaleigh. For the baby I mean. Will you keep it?" Kaleigh didn't know yet. 
             "I'm terrified of what people will think. And I'm terrified of what they will say. More for you, Aidan, than for myself."
             "Let them talk, Kaleigh. No one outside these walls needs to know your story and everyone within them knows the truth." Aidan held Kaleigh until all the tears had stopped flowing.


Arabella had asked Kaleigh, when she had lived with her for about a month, when her birthday was. Kaleigh was spending most of her time with Aidan. She had lived in Ireland for five months and as her belly grew, so did the rumors about her and Aidan. One day, Kaleigh came in crying. She sat on the couch holding her knees. Arabella asked her what was wrong. "They're blaming Aidan for this," she said holding her belly. "I won't be surprised if he leaves me for it. He left school early today and that's when the girls went after me. They told me I've stolen him and that the only reason he stays with me is because it's his baby." Kaleigh stopped to catch her breath. "I love him, Arabella." Arabella smiled at her. "Why are you smiling?"
            "Come with me," Arabella instructed. "We remembered better than you, what today is." They walked into the kitchen and Kaleigh saw Aidan. He stood next to a cake on the table. "I love you too, Kaleigh," he said coming toward her. "Happy birthday." He wrapped her in his arms. "And I love your baby, too. It may not be my  baby but it is a part of you and so I love it." Kaleigh hugged Aidan back.
            "Thank you, Aidan." She pulled away slightly. "Thank you, Arabella."



So since this seems to be going on for a long time... I'm going to post another blog with another piece if not the rest of the story... Sorry...