Still debating...

I answered one of my own questions today. I watched "Beauty and the Beast" while I ate lunch. And because I was so cold earlier I put on socks, pajama pants over my spandex, and a sweater. Now that I've warmed up a bit I took off my sweater but I'll probably leave my socks and pants on. I finished my history notes really fast because I only had 3 more vocabulary words to write out. I dried my laundry now I just have to fold it and put it away. The putting away part is my least favorite. I haven't written anything new in "Arthur" so far today but that doesn't mean I won't later. "Avalon High" is on Disney Channel tonight so I might be able to get some inspiration from it. I was supposed to make Irish Soda Bread today but haven't as of yet. Maybe I can get my dad to help me with it later. I know he probably won't want to help me but it won't hurt to ask. If he does say no I'll just do it myself. I'm still on the fence about posting a paragraph or two from "Arthur" on here. I don't want anyone to steal my ideas. Tomorrow morning is probably going to be slow for me. And hard for me to stay away. It's a pretty slow class but I can usually get through it. I look forward to my history class in the afternoons though. I'm starting to despise the lunch hour at school though. It's slow and the lunch room is usually really crowded and noisy and I don't like that. My back is really bothering me and I don't know why. My battery on my phone is really spastic. One minute I have 4 lines on my battery and the next I have 2. And sometimes it just randomly turns itself off. That really bothers me. Other times it will be working just fine and then randomly hang up on me. We're having Tater-Tot casserole for dinner tonight. I'm happy. I actually brought that recipe home from Thunderbird a few years ago. Yeah, I know my Dad had the recipe from before but when we started eating it as a family I brought it home. I'm listening to, as I've been calling it, "Baby Elephant Music." It's actually called, "Sing, Sing, Sing" and it's by Benny Goodman. The reason I call it "Baby Elephant Music" is because there is a GE commercial that uses it as the background sounds for a baby elephant dancing around. It's super cute and makes me smile every time. It's a big band swing song and it really makes you want to dance. There's also one where the elephant dances to "Singin' in the Rain." I've been posting a lot of videos to my Facebook page lately. Katers finally posted a new video sometime between my last post and this one and it's SUPER funny to me. I just ate a dark chocolate chip oatmeal cookie. Be jealous. It was amazing. Shame on me for eating a cookie before dinner but it sounded good so I ate one. Again shame on me for not finding a healthier snack but hey, I eat what I like. I hate to say it but I'm kind of out of things to write right now. Tomorrow may be a little more interesting because I go to school and might actually have a topic. For now though I think I'm going to get off.


Feel loved and safe.
A Thiarna, déan trócaire, A Chríost, déan trócaire.

Hmm...

So I'm debating wether or not I should put up a piece of "Arthur" for you to read. Maybe just to make you want to know more about the story? It's 4 pages now and I've already started working on the 5th page. I finally get a "Pocahontas" song on my Pandora channel. I'm burning a candle while I write today. I need to finish up my history notes today so I'll be ready for class tomorrow. We were reading about Pocahontas in our text books this week. I also need to finish up my "Jeopardy" game for Thursday's afternoon class and come up with an outline for my story for Thursday's morning class. It's abnormally cold in my room today. My feet are freezing and therefore the rest of me is freezing. Katers' hasn't posted a new video yet but I'll keep watching for it. I'm tempted to get my hair cut again but I'm not sure if I should or if I should let it grow out again. It's at the point right now where I can't really do anything with it but put it in a ponytail and yesterday my ponytail was really fluffy. I kind of want to watch "Beauty and the Beast" while I make my history notes today. To keep me occupied. My brother is home with me today but thus far all he's done is go to the gym to meet his trainer and then come home and go to sleep. Besides that he got me up super early to take pictures for him to send his trainer. It made me a little grumpy. I went back to bed for a couple more hours and woke up in a much better mood. I think if I post a piece of "Arthur" I'll put it in it's own blog. I'd appreciate any comments and CONSTRUCTIVE criticism. If you're just going to mean then please don't post a comment. My Arthur story isn't like the story everyone has already heard. The fun thing about legends and not having a lot of FACTS about a story is that you can make it up and there isn't anyone to tell you that you're wrong about it. I just noticed that it's a quarter to noon already and all I've done is my laundry. So I guess I should probably get going for now. I'll post again probably around 3 PM and update what's been going on. And if I've made any progress on "Arthur" or decide to actually post a bit of it. In the mean time...


Feel loved and safe.
A Thiarna, déan trócaire, A Chríost, déan trócaire.

Short blog is short.

I've been able to write almost 2 pages in "Arthur" today. I hope it's as interesting as the first 2 pages were. I'm pretty proud of myself. I got new colored pencils today and that makes me happy. Now I just need something to color. We got dark chocolate chip oatmeal cookies at Costco today so I have snackage for my lunch. I'm watching NCIS right now. I always get nervous when I watch shows like that so I just changed the channel. We might be going to watch my former piano and voice coach and his dad at Bahama Breeze tonight but I'm not sure if we're going to. Why do men say women have a type? I don't like being classified as a type. Not a whole lot has happened today. Been a pretty slow one. Dad and I did the shopping at Costco while Mom and my brother took care of something at the bank. We met up at the register for a little while. Then Mom and my brother finished up the grocery shopping while Dad and I went to Wal-Mart for my pencils and a lighter so I can take my showers by candle light. So I switched channels again and a commercial comes on for NCIS. It shows Gibbs slapping the back of Tony's head 3 different times. I kind of wonder how Michael Weatherly feels about being slapped on the back of his head some many times. He must either have a hard head or just doesn't feel it anymore. Makes me curious anyway. I told my little neighbor that I'd come over and play for a little while. I don't really 'play' as such anymore. Kind of out grew it. But I will keep my promise and go play for a little while. I'm sorry the blog is so short but we didn't really do anything. 


Feel loved and safe.
A Thiarna, déan trócaire, A Chríost, déan trócaire.

It's morning again.

Not going to say it's a good morning because I'm not entirely sure that it is. Received some bad news just before bed last night. Cried for a long time and then tried to sleep. My sister called me and talked to me for a while and when we hung up, I turned over and fell into one of the deepest sleeps of my life. I feel slightly refreshed today but I'm still sad. I've been able to write this morning though. It's cathartic for me to be able to put my feelings down on paper. And to be able to give them to a character, I'm able to release them from myself. The family isn't really doing anything today. Probably going to do some shopping for groceries and such. I need to go to Wal-Mart and get some new colored pencils and a lighter so I can light my candles for my shower at night. I got new batteries for my alarm clock so I'm half tempted to just turn my phone off at night so I don't get woken up by text messages. Or I could just turn off the notifications but I like to hear from Katers. I need to start using my humidifier again. It helps me breathe better. Watching Katers' new video has put me in an even better mood. I'm hoping to see some video from last nights show so that I can share it with you. It was a fun show even with the few mistakes that happened. I'll post again sometime later. Either after a shopping trip or tonight after dinner. 


Feel loved and safe.
A Thiarna, déan trócaire, A Chríost, déan trócaire.

WE DID IT!!!

The show is over now. We rocked it out to the best of our abilities. It was a lot of fun and a GREAT workout. Lots of dancing and singing and combinations of both. My feet and back are killing me now but I'll be fine. I love the feeling of being finished. I feel accomplished. Even with people moving me out of my place and making me a little mad, I've managed to find a soothing presence in a friend. She's a very special person to me. One of my best friends. I got to dance with my best friend and his little brother tonight which is always fun because they're both trained in ballroom dancing so I get to learn from them. I'm so proud of my best friend. He's like a little brother to me and he learned an entire dance in about 20 minutes. That's impressive because the dance is one of our hardest. "Arthur" has had a bit of work done on it today and I need to say a special thanks to a couple of friends who helped clear my momentary writer's block. They helped me figure out where to send the story for the next piece. I had gotten myself stuck and it's a bit hard to think when 3 people are all talking at you at once. I was trying to focus on one person and someone else would yell in my ear. It's annoying when you ask them to please lower their voice and they continue on at the same level. Celine Dion is singing "Beauty and the Beast" right now. I love her voice. I don't know. There's just something about it. Celine Dion, Josh Groban. Same kind of thing to me. It's just soothing. I know it's kind early but I'm seriously contemplating going to bed. It's been the long day I predicted and I'm a bit on the emotionally spent side. Emotionally spent you ask? Yes. It's been a trying day. I have a bit of an inferiority complex I'm still learning to deal with and being pushed out of your space and forced to move upstage and placed behind tall people where you can't be seen is a bit frustrating. Especially when the person moving you is 11 years your junior but I'm learning to deal with it. My eyes are still watering from taking off my make up. I despise wearing make up. There are only certain times when I've actually enjoyed wearing make up and I didn't do it myself those times. Usually it was after my sister had done it for me. She has this way of doing my hair that is SUPER cute and I wish I knew how to do it myself but I don't. I wish I was nearer to her or that she could come visit sometimes just so she could do my hair. But circumstance is not permitting and so I love our phone calls and emails whenever I get them. I know my blog is a little short compared to some of the others but I DESPERATELY need a shower tonight and I'm exhausted. I hope I sleep.


Feel loved and safe.
A Thiarna, déan trócaire, A Chríost, déan trócaire

It's show day.

Here we go folks. It's the day of the show and I'm up and getting dressed and ready to go for rehearsal. It's going to be a long day. I didn't sleep well last night as things kept falling off of the wall or the underside of my bed and waking me up. That in addition to my phone ringing when Katers17 would post to her Twitter account. Don't get me wrong I love to hear from her because she amuses me and makes me laugh but at 2:30 in the morning before I have a show that night it's not as much fun. We have rehearsal from 10 AM to 1 PM today and then a break between. Dad says we'll be coming home and getting showered and having dinner and making sure we're ready for the actual show which is tonight at 6. We have to be back at the theater by 5 PM so we can do our last minute stuff and make sure we have our set list and stuff. I really hope I'll get to see the people I invited tonight. I invited a teacher and a couple of my classmates. Brian said he'd be coming. I love hearing my sister's voice early in the morning. She left me a message last night and I just decided to listen to it this morning. It puts me in a good mood I guess. I'll post again during our break before the show and again after the ACTUAL show if I'm awake enough to write. Otherwise it will be tomorrow morning. I hope and pray today is a good day for you all.


Feel loved and safe.
A Thiarna, déan trócaire, A Chríost, déan trócaire.

January 28, 2011

I got to talk to my sister tonight. Which is kind of serendipitous because I meant to text her this morning. I had been thinking "It's been almost a week since I've talked to my sister," and then she called me tonight. I was really glad to hear from her. Totally made today a great day. I needed a great day like today. It was productive and fun. Listened to Disney music and danced around my room like no one was watching. Then again no one was. I watched a few Katers17 videos and got myself stuck talking with an English accent. When I talked to my sister she started talking that way too which was amazing fun in the car on the way home. We went to Sweet Tomatoes for dinner tonight. I'm so full I won't want to eat again til tomorrow. I need to make sure I eat breakfast tomorrow because I have rehearsal in the morning. I have a show tomorrow with my dad and my brother. I'm singing a duet and my brother is singing a duet AND a solo. I was looking at the pictures taken by one of my favorite photographers today and realized that he has photographed some of my favorite Christian artists. His name is Jeremy Cowart. If you have time have a look at some of his work. I got some redecorating done in my room today. Moved in a new cabinet and moved out an old one. Cleaned up my floor a little and moved around some of the things that are on my floor. Put together a laundry basket that has a place for the next days clean cloths on top of it. I'm noticing that it's getting easier for me to find the harmony note in a song and stick with it. That's good considering I didn't used to be able to do that. It just took a little teaching and now LOTS of practice but I'm getting better at it. While I'm writing tonight I've turned on my Disney Pandora again and I'm listening to some of my favorite music. I've known most of the songs they've been playing tonight. I'm still looking for the cord that will plug my video camera into my computer so that I can make a new video for my Youtube channel. Wow, 2 "Lilo & Stitch" songs in a row. That doesn't happen often. Anyway, back to the video talk. I've been making a lot of little video clips that are funny and I'd love to share them but I can't find the cable. I'm hoping to have my hair braided tomorrow. I'll be wearing my contacts. Is it weird that I almost prefer to wear them right now? After 12 years of wearing glasses I'm almost preferring to wear my contacts. They are boatloads easier to dance in than my glasses because they don't slide down my nose or attempt to fall off of my face. I'm listening to Phil Collins and N'Sync skat right now. It's from Tarzan. Called "Trashin' the Camp." Heard of it? If not you should check it out. It's a lot of fun. I want to get up and dance around every time I hear it. I caught myself sort of praying in Gaelic today. I was getting frustrated with something and I popped off with my closing line from this blog. The one that means "Lord, have mercy." It was funny to me. I can't wait til I accidentally say it at school and someone catches it. THAT will be funny. I need another shelf for my Build-A-Bears. I have 8 of them on my floor at the moment because I don't have a shelf for them. I just counted the ones on the shelves I have and it looks like 7 will fit on one shelf. I have 3 on the top shelf of my bookshelf, 2 on their own personal shelf and 2 on top of my dresser. I taped a picture to the top of my laptop today. It's of Michael Weiss and myself from when my mom took me to see Stars on Ice for my graduation present. We had ice side seats. I actually have a picture of my finger ON the ice. I was SUPER excited about that night as it was. Mum hadn't told me where we were sitting and no one would tell me so it was a great surprise to be sitting by the ice. To add to the excitement our seats were numbers 14 and 15. 14 is my lucky number and it turned out to be EXTREMELY lucky for me that night as I got a special shirt that was autographed by the cast. And Mum and I could kind of tell it wasn't planned as part of the show because Yuka Sato and Michael kept saying Um a lot. I think the shirt I got was Michael's personal cast shirt because you can't buy the shirt I got. I will treasure that shirt. I've sort of run out of things to say tonight. So I will try and post again tomorrow morning. If I can't I'll be sure to post and tell you how the show goes. A reminder on the show info: 
Colabo In Review
8125 W. Sahara Ave.
Las Vegas, NV 89117
Show starts at 6 PM Doors open at 5:30
Tickets are $15 and are available at the door.
Seats are first come, first served.


Feel loved and safe.
A Thiarna, déan trócaire, A Chríost, déan trócaire

HA!!!

I just realized I've been cleaning and organizing and redecorating since about 10:30 this morning. It is now 2:40 PM and I'm finally taking a break. I've been listening to Disney music on Pandora and bouncing around and having a good time. Hung up some more pictures in my room and moved some that were already hanging up. I pulled my hair back and got it out of the way. The family is going out for dinner tonight. We're going to go to Sweet Tomatoes. Hope I don't eat too much tonight and make myself sick. Tomorrow night is our show. I'm excited and yet extremely nervous at the same time. Aren't I always? Been watching videos and forgot I was blogging. Now I've got to go get ready for dinner. Will write again soon. 


Feel loved and safe.
A Thiarna, déan trócaire, A Chríost, déan trócaire

It's morning again.

I'm hoping to have a productive day today. So far I've eaten breakfast and scared away 2 cats from my yard. I tried to get Shadow to leave them alone because they're outside and can't get to her but she wouldn't stop yelling at them. So I had to go outside barefoot and in shorts and a tank top and now my feet are cold. Therefore the rest of me is cold. I'm sitting on the couch with blankets wrapped around my feet trying to get warmed up. I'm watching "Charmed" and then going to my room to spend the day cleaning, putting away laundry, and maybe writing a little. If I'm inspired enough to actually write. I'll probably turn on my Pandora radio and go from there. I'll crank it up pretty loud and drown out the world. Desperately need to do some work on my room. When that gets taken care of I need to do some work on my history notes. I'm home all day today so I should be able to get SOMETHING done. Why is it when someone on tv starts to scratch I get itchy? It's weird. I'm full from my breakfast. I had a bowl of Honey Bunches of Oats and 2 slices of buttered toast. It was good. I wrote a page and a half in "Arthur" yesterday. I'm proud of myself. My back is killing me today. It's been cramped up for days and I can't get it to relax. And believe me, I've tried. Hot showers, cracking it, and giving myself a massage. Nothing helps. I suppose I'll eventually feel better but I wish that day would hurry up and get here. Well I'm going to go clean up for a while. I'll post again at lunch with a progress update. Ok? 


Feel loved and safe.
A Thiarna, déan trócaire, A Chríost, déan trócaire

Ouch...

My head is hurting tonight. I'm pretty sure it's because I'm hungry. Dinner is ready so I'm going to attempt to eat and write at the same time. We're having soft tacos for dinner. I find it funny that I'm thinking in Gaelic sometimes. I only know one line in Gaelic but that's what I've had in my head for a few days now. The one line I know has been posted at the end of every blog since I learned it. It means "Lord, have mercy. Christ, have mercy." I've written about half a page in "Arthur" now and I'm feeling better about my prospects with it. Maybe I'll dream some of the story. It would be nice to know where to go from here. I'm watching NCIS with my dad at the moment. It's going to be an interesting day tomorrow. Going to be cleaning and writing and thinking. I'll probably turn on some music to keep my mind active while I work. My mom got the lighter to work super easily last night and that kind of bothers me. Because I try to make it work all the time and it doesn't usually work for me. I love the shower by candle light. It's become one of my favorite things. I'm not sure but I might consider listening to some slow music to help me relax tonight. Not sure if I will or not. For some reason, it's exceptionally hard to write today. So maybe I'll just save my time for tomorrow. And try to find a topic to write about. 


Feel loved and safe.
A Thiarna, déan trócaire, A Chríost, déan trócaire

Hey-O!

I'm sitting in my classroom as I have been for almost an hour now. I watched Katers17's newest video. Now I'm listening to Celtic Thunder "Steal Away" and rather enjoying the peace inside my own head. Unfortunately it won't be lasting much longer. Class starts in just 5 minutes. I'm finally starting to enjoy my Robin McKinley book. It's called "Spindle's End" and it took me the first 3 chapters to be interested in it. This class is so confusing. Half of the things that are said go right over my head but I'll do my best to get through it. I wonder what video we're going to watch today. Seems we've watched one every week. Can't wait to go to the library today. I decided to wear my favorite hat today. It's my hat from "Oliver!" so it has many good memories tied to it. Tomorrow I will probably spend a good bit of the day reviewing my song for the show on Saturday and cleaning up my room. It's quite messy right now and it's starting to bother me. I'm hoping to finish my history notes and maybe get a little work done on "Arthur." What is "Arthur" you ask? Well it's the book I was talking about writing. My King Arthur story. I have two sentences now. And two characters. We're going to be writing stories for Speech Class next week and then telling them in front of the class. The thing is the class is going to be trying to figure out if the story is real or made up. So we need to have lots of adjectives and descriptions. He's talking about brands and how our twitter account is going to be part of our brand. Generally confused. I have a piece of a song stuck in my head. I've been practicing saying the words without the music. I'll post some more after class. When I get home from school.


Feel loved and safe. 
A Thiarna, déan trócaire, A Chríost, déan trócaire

More notes...

I'm working on so many history notes it's not even funny. I know that I'll be able to use my book and notes and the web and anything else I need for the test but I'd rather be prepared. I went to the library today and found 1 book in the adult section and 3 in the kids section. It confuses me a little that adults are so oblivious to what happened. It's going to make it hard for me to find any more information for my presentation. My group seems to be very interested in actually doing the work for the project. I get to go to the library in Green Valley tomorrow after school. School is going to be hard tomorrow. I really only look forward to one class. And that's my US History class. I need to get some stuff together for my website. It's not that great now but it will be when it gets finished. I'm watching "iCarly" on Nick right now and I think it's kind for funny that it's an episode that centers around dance. I absolutely LOVE to dance. It's honestly on of my favorite things to do. When I hear music for the most part I have to move. When it's slow music I kind of wish I had a guy to share the music with. When the music has a kickin' bass beat I like to just jump around. It's hard to describe. Something I picked up from a friend I don't get to talk to anymore. I'm not sure what happened but she doesn't talk to me anymore. I decided to change the channel and watch Food Network. "Cake Boss" is on. They're making a cake that has the Statue of Liberty on it. And he's inspiring his kids to maybe join the baking business by letting them decorate cupcakes sometimes. I'm trying to write a King Arthur story. Have been for a while now. I came up with the first line today. And I have a character now besides just the main characters of Arthur, Guinevere, and Lancelot. I'm not really sure if I want to figure Merlin into the story or not. Maybe you could tell me. We're having stir-fry for dinner. Not my favorite but not my least favorite either. I'm eating now. The 200th episode of "Dog The Bounty Hunter" comes on in 2 hours. I now have a cat scratch on the underside of my right arm. And it burns. Stings. OUCH! My favorite pen ran out of ink today which bums me out a little. I find it interesting what dad just said. "There's something funny going on." Isn't there usually something funny going on? At least I think there is. At wish I could find something funny right now. I'd love to post something amusing for you all to read. But nothing really happens for me. The cat amuses me but most of the time whatever it is she's doing she stops when I turn on the camera. Which bugs me because she's hilarious. Dr. Carter said he thinks there is a History Channel video about the Trail of Tears but he's not sure. I'll have to have a look. I can't find it but that doesn't mean it isn't there. My mom's trying to help me. Explain to me why I keep watching reruns. Anyway... I may post again after a little while but I may just post again after class tomorrow. I don't think I'll be able to actually do that during class but I might. I don't really use my laptop on Thursdays but it goes with me to school. Then after school tomorrow I go to the library.  Anyway for the night...


Feel loved and safe.
A Thiarna, déan trócaire, A Chríost, déan trócaire

morning...

It's January 26th. I've got some reading to do today. And I need to visit the library and research the Trail of Tears some more. I need to check my encyclopedia too. I'm watching an episode of "Charmed" at the moment and trying to wake myself up. For some reason my parents were REALLY loud this morning and woke me up at 6:45. It was annoying because I wasn't ready to be awake. Tonight is the 200th episode of "Dog: The Bounty Hunter" and I'm kind of excited about it. I'm going to eat some breakfast and then get going on some research. I've got to find a current event to take for speech class in the morning and I need to finish reading my definitions for my afternoon class. I'll update you all again later ok?


Feel loved and safe.
A Thiarna, déan trócaire, A Chríost, déan trócaire

I'M HOME!!!

I'm home from school now. My history class is making me happy. Is that weird? I'm actually looking forward to a group project. We're going to be doing our presentation on The Trail of Tears. Which makes me happy because I am currently the expert on the subject we're studying. I'm thinking about riding up to the library tomorrow to do some more research considering there is a whole half page of information in my textbook. I haven't checked how much info there is in my encyclopedia yet. I'm watching "That 70's Show" and I'm thinking that Selena Gomez and Mila Kunis look remarkably similar. They also form their words in a similar fashion. I know that's really weird but it's true. We're having Sloppy Joes for dinner. I'm kind of excited about it because I've been smelling the sauce for about 40 minutes or so. It's not fair. I'm hungry. I ate a piece of bread to help settle my stomach. I think dinner's almost ready. Scooby-Doo on Cartoon Network! Me really happy right now.  And dinner is in just a few minutes. Finally. We have these German almond cookies that my dad brought home from work. They're really really good. I just ate one. My dinner is ready now. I'm so happy to be eating dinner right now. I was supposed to have to go with my dad to a rehearsal tonight after school but that wound up not happening. So we came home and now we're eating. I'm thinking about about changing my closing line. I found a line in a song that I like. Or I could just use both. Let me know what you think.


Feel loved and safe.
A Thiarna, déan trócaire, A Chríost, déan trócaire

Seriously...

Today is going so slowly. We've spent most of our class period thus far sitting around looking at each and the projector screen. My head feels weird today. And I know it's not because I'm hungry. I just ate. Why is my sense of smell so terribly heightened today? It's making my stomach upset. It's weird. Joe and I were trying to think of a Greek myth's name yesterday and for the life of me I couldn't remember who he was. All we could remember was that he has wings on this feet. So I looked it up and his name is Hermes. Just thought I'd let you know in case you may have forgotten too. Class is officially halfway over and we're just now starting the slide show for the day. I'm looking forward to Saturday nights performance. It should be quite exhilarating. I've invited a few people and I really hope they can make it. It's going to be a really good show. I'm also excited because I was informed last night that my brother is going to be coming for a visit the weekend of February 12th. The girl in front of me is playing Pac-man in class. I guess that's just as acceptable as me blogging during class. On the other hand my blog has a bit of relevance to the class. An education in culture and art leads to a better understanding of the world. People are able to form their own opinions and ideas versus just letting someone else tell them how to feel and what to think. It also effects self awareness and self exploration. Through our self expression in art, be that through a tangible media or through dance and music, we understand ourselves and others around us better. I have learned to express myself in many forms of art. Such as dance, poetry, painting, and writing. I have, in my room, made a painting on poster board that I made by simply putting paint in my hands and slapping it down on the paper. I also put paint on the tips of my fingers and flung it onto the paper. It has become one of my favorite pieces because I remember how I was feeling and was able to show exactly how I felt through the paint. I chose dark colors and made a mess. Form follows function. That statement keeps popping up in my life. I used it as the model for my fashion in Shamron. Functionality was key. For the Royals of Shamron beauty was part of their clothes. Greek columns have made a reappearance in my art classes. I learned them in my 8th grade art class with Mr. Scott and now they're showing up on my Art History midterm. The upside to paying attention in class. the downside is that sometimes you get called the teacher's pet and then people make fun of you. I've spent a good bit of my life being made fun of. Despite that fact, I'm learning to embrace who I am, quirks and all. I love learning everything I can about everything anyone is willing to teach me. I'm afraid, sometimes, that all the things I know will scare people away from me and make them think I'm a know-it-all. I wonder what I could find on the sculptures and art of Pompeii, Italy. We're talking about Greek art in class but I wonder what I could find on Italian sculpture... This post is getting a bit lengthy so maybe I'll take a break and post some more after lunch. I'll be in US History then.

I hope you are feeling how loved you are and are being safe.

Nyarg...

I hate mornings... Why do I have to have class at 8 AM? Today is my Monday. Art history this morning then US history this afternoon. Oddly enough I'm looking forward to THAT class. The people in my class have dirty mouths. It bothers me. We're supposed to be training for experiences in the real world. I wish students understood that in the work place the person who presents themselves more professionally is more than likely going to land the job over the person who uses swear words and has piercings in their face and tattoos. This is the reason why I have kept myself away from that lifestyle. I try and look my best and be on my best behavior all the time. I feel that being prepared for a job and looking the part will usually help me land whatever part it is I'm looking to get, whether it be a job or a role in a play. I'm getting ready for class to start so I don't know how much I'll actually be able to post in this first blog today. I'll post more after class to let you know what we talked about. I'm starving at the moment and haven't had a chance to eat yet. Can't wait til break so I can eat.

Feel loved and safe today.

It's almost time for bed...

Ok so it's really not but I'm super tired. Which is really weird because I really haven't done much today. Just laundry. And reading. Maybe it's because I spent most of the day sitting down. Then again I'm going to be spending most of tomorrow sitting down too. My back is hurting tonight. I'm watching "NCIS" and "Pretty Little Liars" at the same time. Troian Bellisario is in this particular episode of "NCIS" and she plays Spencer in "Pretty Little Liars" so I'm enjoying myself at the moment. Holly Marie Combs is in the one too. The suspense in this show is making my heart beat so fast. It's making me nervous. And now the phone is ringing. The answering machine is full so when it got to the end of the ringing it said, "No one is available to take your call. Please call again." I find that very amusing. It's weird but I'm really not looking forward to going to school tomorrow. I'd love a quarter away from all of everything. A trip abroad would be nice. I'd love to spend some time in Ireland and make some connections over there. Why does that country seem to occupy so much of my head space? I don't get it. The music makes me feel far away. The culture seems to fit me better. Maybe it's because I don't really belong in the US... I don't know. I don't understand what goes on in my head a lot of the time. It's so spastic sometimes. Sometimes I'm glad my parents aren't divorced or separated. This show makes me wonder sometimes, if I really missed all the much by being home schooled for high school. Boy drama seems to happen anywhere and at any time in a persons life. Though I do sometimes wish I'd been able to experience a school dance. Freshman year we had banquets but we weren't allowed to dance. "Adventists don't dance" I've been told. But I love to dance. It's something that makes me feel really great about myself and it's a great work out. I'm looking forward to my shower and my bed. I hope I sleep. I need to watch something amusing before I go to sleep or I'm pretty sure I'll have nightmares. Or maybe I should just read some of my book. This one is called "Spindle's End" and it's by Robin McKinley. I need to get going though. I'll post some more tomorrow.

Feel loved and safe and good night.

The Day, January 24, 2011

It's been a pretty boring day today. Not much happening. Shadow noticed a cat in the backyard and in the process of scaring her away I realized that the weather is actually really nice right now. So I opened up the kitchen window and the front door. Left the screen locked of course. Now that the sun is starting to set it's starting to get cold again. I think I'm going to close up. One of these days I need to get myself to the post office so that I can FINALLY send Katers17's present. I'm watching "The Andy Griffith Show" on TVLand because I can't really find anything else on tv. This is one of my favorite episodes. Opie is saving his money so he can buy his girlfriend a present. Andy is upset with him because he won't give any money to the Under Privileged Children's Fund. What no one is asking Opie is what he wants to buy for Charlotte. He's saving his money to get her a coat. She's one of the under privileged children... My phone rang twice today. Once was a notification that Katers had posted on Twitter. The second time was my dad asking me me what was for dinner. He also reminded me that he had to pick up my mom from work since my brother's working the night shift tonight. I found a recipe for Irish Soda Bread today and it sounds really really good. I'd love to try making it but I'm going to need some caraway seeds and some buttermilk. I'll ask my dad about it when he gets home with my mom. I don't think it would be too hard. I'm thinking about having a party sometime this year but I don't really have a real reason to throw one. I want it to be a theme party and make it like a King Arthur period party. Fancy dresses and fancy foods. Old style music. That sort of thing. I need to save some money before I can do anything though. I'm watching a snippet of "Hannah Montana" while changing channels. Jackson's current girlfriend is played by Tammin Sursok who is from South Africa. Me being who I am, I can pick out the fact that she's covering her beautiful accent with an American one just like they did to Claire in "Mean Girls 2" last night and Gregg Sulkin in "Avalon High". Why do they keep doing that to beautiful accents? I appreciated the fact that they didn't make Ashley Lilley do that with her Scottish accent in "Mamma Mia!" I hate it when they make people be other than themselves. I love being me. I understand that it's just acting but I also wish they would let people be a bit more of themselves in movies and shows. I'm wishing I had something to do right now. I suppose I could read some more of my history homework. I have class tomorrow. Art history in the morning and US history in the afternoon. Lots of dates and a lot of time periods to cover. Just found "Pirates of the Carribean" 2 I believe on Syfy channel. So I'll probably be flipping back and forth between that and "Ghost Whisperer" on ion. Well for now I'm going to save whatever else pops into my head for the after dinner-before bed blog. I hope that you have felt loved and safe all day.

Morning... It's January 24.

It's cold in my living room right now. My toes feel like tiny ice cubes. I have a sweater and pants on and I'm still cold. Maybe I should put on socks. I don't know anymore. I have laundry to fold today and lots of homework reading. Why do I have to read 126 pages of patent, copyright, and trademark law? It's all definitions and it's SOOO boring... And I have to read 2 chapters in my history book. Still haven't been able to find the cord for the video camera I've been using. I do have a new memory card in there though so I should be able to record some new footage soon. I'm watching some old episodes of "CSI: Crime Scene Investigation" that I've seen before. Maybe I'll notice something new in them. I don't have anything to watch til 8PM today. Why does George Eads have a mustache? Weird. It was hard to fall asleep last night even though I was really relaxed. There were a lot of really random thoughts going through my head. I'm going to be folding laundry while I watch tv and then I'm going to put it away. I hate sneezing. It's like the worst thing ever. I hate it when people hit their dogs too. And for no reason other than the dog came up to say hi. So dumb. There are two baskets of laundry to fold and put away. Pets owners have lower stress levels. Interesting fact. I'm going to keep this kind of short so that I have more to write about tonight. If anything actually happens between now and tonight.

Feel loved and safe.

January 23, 2011 night

I'm sitting watching "Mean Girls 2" alone. Parents have gone to bed. Brother's in his room. Unfortunately I called it with Claire in this movie. They've made her sound like an American and made her the dumb one. I have no school tomorrow so I'll be sitting at home doing homework and cleaning my room. It definitely needs it. And I need to put laundry away. Why did they have to make some of my favorite people the bad guys? I hate it when that happens. I'm hoping to get some "just for fun" shoots in sometime this quarter with the crazy amounts of time  I have off. I need to start working on my portfolio stuff. I'm watching Katers17's newest vlog post during commercials. These girls are major mean. I'm really starting to dislike them. I have this really weird twitch in my tummy right now. It's happening at almost the same time as my heart beat but not quite.

I've made a discovery. I absolutely LOVE taking showers at night by candle light. Hey, that rhymed. :) It's so totally relaxing that I've slept soundly for the last 3 nights in a row. Which is saying something considering I don't usually sleep through the night. The only sound is of the water hitting the floor of the shower. It's peaceful and mellow and, if I was married, it would be EXTREMELY romantic.

I found myself giving advice to an adult today. That's not something I do everyday. I told her simply to be proud of who she is. It's something I'm trying to do myself. All the while holding out for the one guy who will except all my strange quirks. If I can count on my feelings at all, I know he's out there. And I feel like he's getting close. I just hope that when the time comes, I'll be able to let myself fall into the arms of the man God has saved just for me. This is officially my longest blog so I think I'm going to stop writing for the night and save more for tomorrow.

Fell loved and safe.

January 23, 2011 evening

I'm sitting in my living room watching tv and waiting for dinner. I'm not entirely sure what we're having for dinner tonight but I'm starting to get hungry. I'm watching "Enchanted" and waiting for "Mean Girls 2" to come on. That won't be on until 8 though. It will never cease to amaze me how people are sometimes. One minute they say how badly they hate gossip and then the next they're the one gossiping. I know that was kind of random but that's what was on my mind at this moment. I'm also beginning to think that I've lived in Las Vegas too long. I can look at a commercial and know which casino they're advertising for even before they show the name. And I'm beginning to be able to tell which Circe du Soleil show they're advertising too. I think we're having black bean sausage for dinner. Can you explain to me why when people seem to be falling a long way they scream? Does screaming really help with anything? I don't think so. Maybe because I've never been a real big screamer... Carrie Underwood is singing and that makes me really happy. I want to go horseback riding again. It's been a while. I may consider writing a review of sorts for "Mean Girls 2" on here. We'll see. One of my favorite actresses is in the movie. Her name is Claire Holt. She's Australian. I know her from a show called "H2O-Just Add Water" where she played a girl who turns into a mermaid and has the power to freeze water. My parents got a new memory card for the video camera today so now I'm hoping to be able to upload some video. I still need a cord to plug in so I can get the on board memory videos off the camera. Getting hungry... my head is starting to hurt. On the upside my parents got Veggie Straws so I can snack on something slightly more healthy than cookies tonight. They also got me jelly beans to snack on. I'll post some more later. After I have dinner. I hope you have felt loved and have been safe today.

January 23, 2011 morning

No big plans today but I'm watching Scooby-Doo on Cartoon Network and then I'm going to be doing homework. Maybe going shopping later. With the rents of course. Brother not home. Pretty boring Sunday. Wish I was going skating but since I still have no edges that's not a possibility. Been watching a lot of videos with trampolines and kind of wish I could do that too. Hoping to maybe either get a new card or new cable for the camera I've been using so I can make a new vlog for my YouTube channel. My Twitter account is kind of stalling out too. Hope I can find something interesting soon cuz I'm even boring myself. If you can think of anything for me to vlog about or try and capture on video let me know and I'll do my best. Or if you would like to be in the vlog let me know about that too. Or even better if you'd like to be my assistant and alternate and help make the videos that'd be cool as well. Anyway...I'm gonna go for now. I'll let you know what happens today when I get done with the day. Hope you're day is amazing and you feel loved and safe.

Introducing...

For the first time... I'm posting on this blog. I'm posting while watching "Mamma Mia" and singing along with my mom. "Dancing Queen" is playing and I'm currently loving life. After the Thursday night I had I'm glad to be having a happy moment. Though talking to my sister for almost an hour after I hadn't talked to her for months made me feel a LOT better. I'm sitting here staring at a package that I need to send to California. It's been waiting for a while. If you're interested I'll be performing in "Colabo In Review" on Saturday, January 29th at 6PM at Family Music Center at 8125 W. Sahara in Las Vegas, NV 89117. Tickets are $10 I believe and are available at the door. Seats are first come, first serve so get there early for the best seats. Anyway... I hope you have a fantastic night and you feel loved and safe.