Feeling like...

At the moment I’m feeling hurt and alone. It’s been a rough day. I know you’re allowed to have other friends and that you want me to be a part of your other life but it’s hard to combine old and new parts of your life. I’ll try my best to be a part of it but it’s kind of hard for me. I felt left out today even though I was included in the game and it was easy to laugh. I felt lonely and out of the loop. I missed you today. Wanted to spend some time just the two of us to talk and catch up kind of. It’s been an off week and I’m sorry if I let you down at all. I know that my blackness gets in the way of everything and that it screws up my relationships. I hope this doesn’t damage anything but I felt I should let you know how I’m feeling. I don’t want to hide things from you. You’re my best friend and I hope that my feelings from today don’t screw anything up for us.